IF

THEY TELL ME

IF I AM HAPPY I AM HIGH

IF I'M SAD, I'M DEPRESSED

IF I FEEL GOOD ABOUT LIFE I'M DELUSIONAL

IF I HAVE A DRINK I'M LOSING IT

IF I DEMONSTRATE ANY EMOTIONS I AM DANGEROUS

IF I TALK QUICKLY MY SPEECH IS PRESSURED

IF I TALK TOO SLOWLY I AM WITHDRAWN AND UNCOMMUNICATIVE

IF I RAISE THE TONE OF MY VOICE I AM THREATENING

IF I AM RIGHT THEN I AM WRONG, SINCE RULE NO 1 IS THAT USERS ARE ONLY RIGHT WHEN THEY ARE WRONG AND I AM MADE TO FEEL NEARLY ALWAYS WRONG.

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE MADE ME FEEL THIS WAY. YES I WONDER IF YOU HAVE THE INSIGHT, YES YOU HAVE THE INSIGHT, TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE, THE ONES WHO HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO THIS NOT SO PRETTY PICTURE OF PSYCHOLOGICAL ABUSE AND DEBASEMENT.

SO MANY TIMES HAVE I HAD TO TAKE THE DECISION MAKERS TO TASK BECAUSE OF INCORRECT DIAGNOSES, ASSUMPTIONS AND PRESCRIPTIONS. NEVER AN APOLOGY. YOU WILL NEVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES RECEIVE AN APOLOGY...RULE NO 2...

HOW COULD YOU.....YOU'RE MAD?

IF WE LIVED IN A PERFECT WORLD, IT WOULD BE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT I INDEED HAD A VOICE, A DEEP RESONANT BEAT, I WOULD BE CONSIDERED THE EXPERT, THE SPECIALIST OF ME, LITTLE PLANET ME, HOW I FEEL, WITH THE PILLS, WITHOUT THE PILLS, WITHOUT YOUR ATTITUDES THAT REALLY KILL, YES YOU SHOULD KNOW THEY KILL.

SO MANY SENSITIVE AND BRAVE FRIENDS HAVE BEEN BULLIED INTO TOTAL SUBMISSION OF MIND, BODY AND SOUL, TILL THE ONLY RELIEF IS THE SWINGING TO AND FRO OF THE HOSPITAL CURTAIN WRAPPED AROUND A SORRY NECK LIKE SOME BIZARRE FASHION SHOW OF DEATH. I WONDER IF YOU HELD THEIR HAND ALONG THAT PATH, ANOTHER LIFE CUT SHORT AND ANOTHER EMPTY BED TO BE FILLED. STRANGE PRODUCTION LINE THIS ONE. SEEMS TO WORK THOUGH?

IF I DARE TO IGNORE YOUR ILLS, YOUR PRESCRIPTIVE PILLS, YOUR LACK OF SKILLS, A LIFE AWAITS ME FULL OF THRILLS, AND MAYBE CHILLS, BUT THAT'S FATE'S DEAL, NOT SUCH A BAD DEAL. IF I WAS TO BE THE MASTER OF MY OWN WILL, IT COULD BE REAL, SO WONDERFULLY
REAL

IF...........................